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During the week I had a reminder

Let me cut some shit out. A good few years ago I drank myself through about £10k, my closest pals know as do some of my family, they were well upset – as you can imagine. I certainly know what its like to be ‘boozing’ too much. That there deepest of holes takes some getting out of, some of us? do, it takes time, ‘guts’ and patience. This is the article I wrote, all facts, and the below video is all about those times, though wrote and recorded a few years later. Listen to the full song, I’m still a hearing it!!!


Did you hear how empty my flat sounds?! Thankfully I got rid of that memory full guitar. Weight loss through sarcoidosis. I dropped to 8 stone and then put on weight through the good, bad and ugly Pred. It is not a lengthy blog as I see no point in trying to say what I know and for many others to guess and carry on guessing… Save on utilities here.

7th September 2013 was a great day

I will do a good write up a little later, but, Andy and Rach’s wedding day was superb, one of the best events I have been to. It is one of those longer moments of time that you certainly do not want to end. Emotions were brilliant all the way through, and some amazing moves with the grooms sister, Julie.

With Julie

Doctors today

I was booked in for Friday, I have had to change it for today, at 49 years old I feel my mind is full up.

Hello darkness my constant friend

Sometimes the low ones appear and go, this is quite a bad one. Perhaps if I had been a complete arseholed bastard then my life might have gone somewhere near to a plan, or something like I always hoped it would. I’m 49, all I hoped for was to be feeling reasonably good and happy inside. Instead, many times I feel my insides are deliberately carrying on slowly giving me shit. I’m sick to death of surviving and not really being able to live. A half decent treat on Saturday meant missing Monday. Working and surviving is better than being on benefits and surviving, but for obvious reasons both are soul destroying.

Redundancy meeting number two

This Tuesday the 27th August at 1pm its my second consultation about the redundancy, Remploy will be present. A main thing is that – thankfully – its been assured that I will have a job. Lots of thoughts, I have still got this urge to progress and help the company, yet at the same time the realist in me says that my sarcoid is still present – in various forms. I still think a challenge will help me, and appreciate the company allowing me to get employment again.

Own Blues by The Rook

Tell you what, this is superb, its got everything. Too many bands these days are letting the blues die, but here we have their ‘Own Blues’ of nice, loud, clear, distorted, ripping it to pieces brilliance, from this young up and coming band here is ‘Own Blues’…

Redundancy meeting number one

Todays meeting went ok, glad Remploy attended, nothing really terrible to mention but to keep as positive as possible. Its something I have never been through before and as much as I try keeping positive the sarcoid seems to know what is happening, as mentioned before, the medics first said remission and now ‘its not active’ and so keeping everything crossed for everything, erm… a positive outcome.

12:00 midday Monday 19th August

That is quite an important time of an important day, its my redundancy meeting. I have invited Remploy to attend, thing is, its the first time I have faced redundancy, what is particularly disappointing is that I got this employment through the Leeds Remploy branch as I have a serious chronic illness (medics terms, not mine!). To be giving a redundancy notice after many promises of how I could progress is kind of not what I expected.

After Enterprise were taken over by Amey, I knew that my particular team would face some kind of disbandment, but I thought progression for myself. Progression was mentioned during my initial interview and through phone calls before I started (I had other opportunities), hmmm. Progression, I had a couple of internal interviews with NGN, and before one of those interviews I was told who it was ‘earmarked’ for, obviously this was declined, but it turned out to be true! Being honest I was sort of glad I did not succeed within that position, for various reasons I really would like to stay within Amey, after all, they actually have been very good with me.

And so the meeting, other positions will be mentioned, I would still like to progress, but I am in my realistic world of Sarcoidosis. It is supposed to be none active, but, something is going on, even folks at work mention I am losing weight, ah, yes the meeting, fingers crossed.

I hope my passion for freedom of speech does not have a negative outcome, various work colleagues will have read this as it is noticed a few do. Included with my qualifications I have;

HNC Technology and Management.
Plumbing level two up to level three gas and water pressure systems.
Nebs management certificate.
NVQ Level two health and social care.
Intense 5Cs training through the SMMT.

They are some going, and should be, especially within the gas utilities industry, someone mention progression?

Birthday time for me

Ok, I have been telling lots about my 40th today, erm, but is it really my 40th? hmmm… life begins at the new 40th, which is 50, yet im most certainly not 50! keep guessing folks…

O’Neills Leeds tonight

Really looking forward to seeing ‘Free Empire’ at O’Neills tonight, Jacob Briggs has his first gig with them, I’m sure it will be a great gig, best tart myself up for any future dates, well, you never know!!!?